TA is here!

I know I am probably going to be kicked out of blogville and all my peeps have given up on me ever updated this blog. I am sorry gang. Life is crazy around here and I swear I haven't had a free moment to do anything. I know, that is no excuse. It is lame, so I will just leave it as an apology.

The big news is our TA arrived earlier than expected. Who knew any news from China came in a speedy manner? Wow! We should find out next week when we will be traveling.

On to the next part of the puzzle here. I am in a strange mood, almost zen like state. I am not freaking out...well not yet at least. I am so calm and at peace right now. This little girl's face has just instantly placed a calmness within her mother's heart. One of my friends is totally freaked out that I am not completely packed yet and that I don't have my luggage by the door. I guess in comparison, China adoption is a different experience for me. I waited 16 months, all in all, to adopt my sons. I was a totally lunatic! I was given 4 days notice to travel, not weeks. Yep, you read that correctly, exactly 4 days! I know when we start making travel plans I will freak out more, but for now, this mom is just so calm.

The boys are getting very excited, although, they think it is much more of the same.....the waiting game. They buy stuff for their little sister all the time. They want to move their beds into her room to keep her company at night. They want to be there for her if she is afraid at night. They are so excited to actually see what adoption is really like through their own eyes. They want to witness what we went through to bring them home. Of course I had to explain to them that mom and dad didn't get to stay in nice hotels during our stay in Ukraine. They do love the pictures of the Sheraton Hotel in Warsaw, Poland where we had to go in order to obtain their Visas. I love watching this adoption through their eyes, it definitely mirrors my own feelings.

I hope for travel news soon! I cannot believe we are almost at the end of one journey to begin a new one with our precious peanut.

My little peanut!

You know after waiting foooooorevvverrr for this child, you would think I would have been more prepared for the actual call, but nope. I guess I should be thankful that I wasn't in class with a herd of 4 year olds and fingerpaint when the call came in.

I want to thank my wonderful secret (well not so secret) pal Lisa and her wonderful children for holding my hand through cyberspace today while I waited. I actually printed out the artwork the kids did and posted it on the front door for dear husband to see. He loved it and had the biggest grin on his face. Thank you so much for hanging in there with me today and well through the past year. Your encouragement and support has meant so much to me.

I also want to thank my special friend K, because without her I would have never had the courage to adopt again.

Okay, Okay, this is sounding like an academy award speech here.....so here we go.....

Name: Xiu Fu Han
DOB: 4/4/06
SWI Xiushan
Chongquing Province

And believe it or not, she has the same description my oldest son had on his file....gulp, active and restless. Ummmm, should I be scared?



I was told the second photo looks like she was laughing, my husband's comment was it looked more like a gas bubble to him. Always the comedian, even when facing a woman on the edge. He is either really brave or really stupid.

Referral Time

I am waiting for the "Call" and half thinking it still might not be my turn. I know totally crazy thinking with a 9/9 LID, but there is a little part of me that thinks something could go wrong.

I had this grand illusion of what this day would be like. Of course I imagined this day coming a year ago, without all the waiting in between. I imagine my husband and I sitting together waiting for the phone to ring, both taking the day off. I imagined the look of excitement on my sons' face at hearing the news about their little sister. I know this illusion is gone forever.

I sit here, my husband is at work, and my two sons are nervously waiting for any word on this mysterious sister that they have waited to play with for so long now. As I look at their faces, I see that they reflect my own inner feelings. It is just relief and boiled over emotions. So we three wait by the phone, waiting for even a slight hint we are actually going to have a referral today.

Happy New Year my baby girl!

Happy New Year!

I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year! I hope this next year brings you lots of good fortune and happiness.


And for my dearest daughter, we are still waiting to see your sweet face. We are so close and I often wonder if you can somehow feel it too. I have no idea why it has taken so long to bring you home. I just hope you know we wait for that wonderful day just to see you and hold you. Until then, my sweet girl, I hope that you can feel the love of this family across the sea and know that this incredible love waits for you.

Happy New Year!